Miss Independent

Tuesday Class

2012-01-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

It was 2 in the afternoon and the sky drizzling. I found my way to a class down the left wing of the building and walked in. The room is long but small, barely containing 15 students. Each row can only fit four person, two on each side of the room, and the only seats left is the front row where the white board is near within my reach.

I settled down and realized that it is extremely cold even with my sweater on. The room is too small for an air-conditioner, and later the class decided on switching it on and off in turns.

There is this guy about my age sitting behind me at the far right corner. When he talked, he sounded exactly like a friend of mine who have a rich, deep voice. The laughter, the voice, the words he used, and the way he talked, is like an exact replica of my friend. Even their snort is the same! It is so alike that I doubted if he would happen to be related to my friend. Then, only do I remembered that my friend do not have any male siblings but only a younger sister.

Without looking at the guy, I would've thought that it was my friend in the room. How could someone sound so alike to each other? They totally need a meet up session :P

Oh why oh why

2012-01-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

In the end, I'm not yours, and you're not mine.

Oh, why? :(

I thought we are getting closer, and you are within my reach.

But, oh why? My dear camera :P

The Sea

2012-01-14T10:39:00.001+08:00

My favorite shot of all time <3

Hello 2012 :) 2011 left as silent as it is and I'm not even prepared to move on. But don't we all have to?

Just Fucking Live

2011-12-14T19:53:00.000+08:00

Freedom

2011-12-09T02:02:00.001+08:00

'Remember what you'd rooted for.'
There, I kept reminding myself.

I chose freedom, above everything else.

Freedom to do whatever I want, with whomever I want, at wherever I want.
Freedom to be with my loved ones and care for them.
Freedom to change the world to a better place.
Freedom to live my life to the fullest, the way I want it to be.

We must always pay first to get something in return.
There, I never forget the golden rule in life.

Kiss Me

2011-12-04T23:28:00.001+08:00

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

为什么会渐行渐远

2011-12-04T16:59:00.001+08:00

我们都会有这样的时候。原本一些你认为很重要的人，你不联系他，他也就真的永远不会联系你了。不知道是因为远距离或是大家都各忙各的忘了联系，原以为共同的回忆好像对他不重要了。
有时候不要把自己放在对方心里太高的位置，因为在别人心里可没那么重要。

不要把别人对你的好当成理所当然，要珍惜。因为遇到一个对你好的朋友，是上辈子修来的福气。

That's How I Roll

2011-11-30T13:46:00.001+08:00

Butterflies

2011-11-29T22:40:00.001+08:00

Do you know about having butterflies in your stomach?

Its literal meaning suggests little to no sense. But trust me, like everyone else I doubted it could actually exist until I felt them in my stomach.

They flutter wild around my stomach like crazy and, I thought I would throw up any second.

I never had them in me, until I met you.

Photo by my favorite photographer of all times, Rosie Hardy. <3

To be Brave and Insane

2011-11-25T22:42:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I look back at myself and get amazed. I don't get to do that very often, but it reminds me of how brave I am once in awhile.

I felt like I'm a princess in full armor on a horse, along with a sword in my hand. Maybe I read too much of fiction and my imagination runs wild. But yeah that was what that came up in my head right now.

I needa do something insane. Something that gets my blood running to know that I'm well inside.

I am one of the bravest person I know. Serious. :P

New Layout

2011-11-24T20:49:00.001+08:00

I love this new layout! It turned out exactly the way I had wanted it to.
I took quite some time contemplating over these three images as the background, and ended up the one that is on display now. It is so me! :D
I love all of 'em, perhaps I would try giving my blog some background change whenever I felt like it.

I will try to write more often, I promise.

Change

2011-11-19T00:06:00.001+08:00

I have to admit that life had not been that kind to me like now before. Especially in that department, previously filled with cobwebs and boring tales.

I am getting really tired of this layout too. Had wanted to change for a very very long time. Still, there are a lot of things that I had wanted to do for a very very long time too. Better start planning for that. I don't wanna regret when the end of world really comes.

Asshole

2011-10-31T11:10:00.000+08:00

If I did not get this off my chest I would probably get cancer for constantly killing off cells in my body.

Imagine someone who is so self-centered and egoistic, and childish, that trying to talk sense to that person drains all your logical thinking and imagination. Why? Simply because it is beyond anyone's imagination.

Grow up, the world does not evolves around you. Not everything is about you as it seems.
Leave your dreams out of this. Because you made it sound like your dreams are of higher interest than the rest of us, and we do not have one of our own.

An asshole who fancies autocratic, and is afraid of letting the civilians understand the meaning of democratic. And tries very hard to keep up with his arguments without any support of coherence and correspondence.

Falling in Love

2011-10-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

How long does it takes to fall in, or fall out of love with a person?

I guess you can't really tell.

I wonder how do I fall in love with a person.
It feels so far away, I can barely remember how it felt.
Or had I fall in love before?

Bossy Mind

2011-10-25T19:18:00.001+08:00

It gets reaaally weird lately. My mind thinks on its own and wanders around aimlessly, and I can only chase behind it.

Maybe it's me hallucinating after waiting for a very very long time. *sigh*

Being Influenced

2011-10-11T14:01:00.002+08:00

You become who you surround yourself with. If you constantly befriend people who channels negative vibes, you can't help but to be drowned in it without realizing. The same thing goes when you surround yourself with positive people. It's just that you notice yourself being a happier person overall. Your consciousness, beliefs, and thoughts are lifted up to a higher level, and you are progressing. And that's how I felt.

I got angry when I see my dear friend surrounding herself with people that practically did no good to her, and still stuck with them no matter what. You deserve better, and you have the freedom to choose who you surround with, as long as they bring out the good in you. Nothing is too much to let go.

Friends look out for each other, they do not take you down.

May we all steer clear from shitty people. Peace.

You're prettiest when you're happy

2011-09-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

Nothing much in my mind to write right now, but the thought of leaving a post with an uncivil opening in my blog, leaves me uncomfortable.

I'm starting to take my life back into control, bit by bit. There is no easy way trying to change your lifestyle and habits for the good, but it is worth it. I want to treat my body, my health and my well-being the way it should be treated. I want to shape my mind into an agile, powerful mindset.

Those months when I was living life on cold grounds and watching every thing pass me by, it was like in rehab. Months and months of rehab, and now I am starting to cure. At least this is how I see it.

I will treasure what I have. Every encounter, every chance, every relationship, and every love, I will take all of them to my heart.

With much love, to all of those who read this. May you give love to those around you and most importantly, yourself.

♥

Skyscrapper

2011-09-16T00:49:00.002+08:00

FUCKING ARRSEHOLES!!!

*sigh*

This is kinda unnecessary. I thought I need some release, but after sleeping thrice today, the reason in me to say this in your face managed to slip away, in my dreams. Or maybe it is because of the sweet gas.

Yesterday before the operation, my mom asked if I would lose my memory if I go under anesthetic. I laughed at her. But honestly, I was hoping that it could take away a part of my memory, to make life easier.

When you were amplifying your thoughts and feelings talking like a baboon, had you ever imagine walking in my 5 1/2 inches high heels? It hurts like hell, but it gets better the more I walked in it.

Do you remember that I am a girl and I do have feelings too? Fuck my gender and my feelings. How could I expect the most ungentle-men I'd ever met to think of them. I am simply asking too much.

Try walking in my heels, ladies. Yes, ladies!

P.S: What's with the post title? Cause that song's lyrics described my feelings perfectly at that moment.

Camera Dream :D

2011-09-12T11:35:00.001+08:00

I had a dream. In the dream, I finally have a SLR, with a uber huge lens attached in front of it. The photos snapped out of it were strikingly beautiful. I remember feeling so fulfilled creating beautiful artwork, and learned that having good lenses are essential.

Maybe this is a sign of buying a camera, like seriously.

2011-09-11T15:10:00.001+08:00

I lied on the bed rolling and shifting sideways now and then, restless.
I tried praying, but it did no good.
Too tired of getting tormented the whole night, I got up and walked around aimlessly.
I walked to the living room and sat on the sofa, resting my head on the cushions, hoping that for a second it will go away, and I can go back to sleep.
When I finally found peace, I slept like there's no tomorrow. I only woke up to have some food and medicine, then it's back to sleep again. Cause it is strenuous and horrifying to keep myself awake with the pain.

If you could take the pain away

2011-08-31T02:04:00.000+08:00

There is an invisible hammer pounding at my skull, resounding after each pound.
There it drills, at the deepest part of that pain. The part where it is the source of all evil.
I thought it's going to burst at any second.
The face crumple, and I curled into a ball.
Then, the mind run through every possibility you can think of to get free.
Anything really, anything.
Nothing but laying on the bed wanting to slam into the wall.
It is a long night to go.

If I could rip it open and tear it away.
If you could take the pain away.

Draft repost: Welcome to Wonderland

2011-08-24T13:05:00.002+08:00

This is a my fairy tale, my version of Alice in Wonderland.

I walked, hopped, then ran, and vanished in the mist of jungle. If you still keep up beside me, I'll take hold of your hand and we'll set out to a marvelous journey ever had. Maybe I'll look back at you, and see how far you are from me. Sometimes I'll slow down and wait for you to catch up, but I got frightened when you bared your fangs at me.

So I walked, hopped, then ran, and met a few Prince Charming. But oh Prince Charming, they awed me speechless, as they do not all appear as enchanting under the skin. Some scampered as they saw goblins walking past, some vain enough to keep checking their hairdos in the water, some can't stop boasting about themselves, while some keep on saying 'but's.

Next, I walked, hopped, then ran, and was led to the chambers of Sleeping Beauty. But oh Sleeping Beauty, they awed me tongue-tied, as once they woke up they sent the world into chaos. Their long beautiful locks and white porcelain skin made them the prettiest of all. But as they whispered spells into people's ear, it all came true.

Oh, what a wild wild wonderland this is.

PS: I like this post, should have get this up ages ago.

Draft repost: Life Goes On

2011-08-24T12:49:00.000+08:00

Found this draft hidden among the many posts I'd written ages ago. It goes way back but I can still tap in to the words. Here we go:

When friendships turn behind your back, it left a big gaping hole in your heart. And I realized that it takes time, and a lot of time, to fill them up on your own.
Some people are meant to come and go, though I wish some of them would stay.

"I've learn that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."
Lisa Brooks

Homecoming

2011-08-24T01:41:00.003+08:00

I say,
that no matter how far we stray in life,
in the end, we still go back to where we came from.

To the place where we call home.

Because it is the best cure to the solitary in your heart.

YOU GAVE ME OUT

2011-08-09T01:04:00.002+08:00

Blog! You gave me out!
I can't believe how stupid I am. How could you gave me out?

Shockshockshockshock.

I thought this very 'PUBLIC' blogspot domain is just a private place where I would come up once in a while and rant about everything when I remember. You see, when people stop leaving comments on the chatbox over there, I thought no one comes to visit this dust-covered space anymore. Just like how I always think that people will have a hard time recognizing me if I wear spectacles and baggy clothes. pfft.

I just thought that it is important to write my feelings and thoughts down. It would be nice to look back after some time to have a good read/laugh at whatever nonsense I wrote.

And then I realised that,
PEOPLE STILL READ MY BLOG.
omgomg all the while when I was talking to walls.

youknowwhoyouare.

stop hiding behind your screens!

n I shall not forget the fact that Malaysians have a tendency of not leaving a word or two of praise or comment.

2011-08-04T13:49:00.002+08:00

Alas, someone knows.
Alas.
There, I would embark on a journey that leads me to freedom.
And never stop, until I hunt it down.

My mind automatically tunes out rants, but laughs along it.
Yes, I do hear a faint calling from somewhere.
Here I go, bay-beh.

With Kids

2011-08-02T16:49:00.002+08:00

I'd been spending my time with kids these few days. They still remember me after 2 years! (which is the last time I visited) Well, I was suppose to take some shots of them making pancakes but some was absent. Instead, I ended up teaching them how to dance! Holding their small hands, leading them to follow my footwork and dance with the beat, is just fun!

Kenneth looooves to sit beside me. So near with me that he constantly needs physical contact. His cuteness is far beyond words to describe, and I can imagine how handsome+cute-looking he will be when he grows up.
Amanda keep stealing looks at me and WeiHao just can't stop grinning. I wonder why they never get tired of it.

Kids' smile is the best of all. They can just flash you their angel smiles whenever you made eye contact, without a need of reason behind those smiles. Their smile is priceless.

When you are too tired with life, they take your mind off those stuff, and just be as free as them without the world on your shoulders. :) ♥

Nah. Kick Ass!

2011-07-28T03:51:00.001+08:00

I realized that, there are times that I try to be the person that fits in. There are also times where I try to be the person where he might take another look at. Trying to get love and respect like every one else.

But man it can be tiring.

Deep down I missed being dynamic. Hmm, how do I define "being dynamic"?

2ne1's dynamic. I just watched their new MV "Ugly", and it just clicked. This girl group here, had been sending out a message all this while and now only do I get it. 2ne1 is about girl power. Ruling the world even though your lover dumps you, rocking the most mix-match outfits like no one cares, and walking down the streets like you own it.

It's about being the REAL you, and this very personal thing that we have, should be flowing through
our body like we own it.

Being pretty, it means confidence, respect, and by all means being ourselves. Embracing the REAL us, it grows out from within our very bones. It can be so loud that it screams out from you, and expressing it in the most personal way is the only exit.

It is so, so important to stick to your ideals no matter what shit happens. When you start doubting yourself, steer to the path that you feel most at ease.

It is also, very, very important to stay true to the REAL you. And never stop expressing yourself, because that is the only thing that can remind you of who you really are.

Then, you can walk like a rock star, with the most confident stance.

Laughing Out of Thin Air

2011-07-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

dead silence (clipped to polyvore.com)

This is too true. I do it all the time. I just swallow my laughter halfway when I found out there's someone beside me and it is hard to try to explain to them why do I laugh out of thin air.

It's sad when people you knew become people you knew

2011-07-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

it's sad when people you know become people you knew (clipped to polyvore.com)

2011-07-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

I am going to be 20 in 2 more months. I am not saying it like I am proud to be finally 20, but the fact that this mere age appears to most adults that I am incapable of many things. It all seemed clear to me when I got a call from my mother yesterday.

That day I saw a quote from an anime where the principal tells the father, "Parents of an independent child end up being lonely most of the time."

I can totally relate to that as it really reflects me and my mother. After I left my hometown to study in college, I was introduced to a whole new life and soon got used to it. I integrated, in the meanwhile rejecting, and later accepting many aspects of it. Circumstances made me even more independent, and slowly growing away from my family.

I seldom call back home. Well, it seemed to me there is not much to talk about. Obstacles? I solve them on my own. Relationship problems? When I had my breakup I wanted to tell my mum so much about it. It was indeed a hard time in my life that I wanted to share with her. I got the second sentence off my mouth and all she said was, "It'd pass. There's no use talking about it."

So I guess I made a conclusion subconsciously that my mum, is not someone to share my problems with anymore. I used to tell her every thought on my mind, every thing that happen in my life, when she still listens.

I sense myself changing. I swallow my problems. No one understands. No one listens and people judge. Can't people start practice listening without judging? It will make the world a REALLY better place. And I consciously remind myself to not repeat what everyone else is doing, cause I know how it feels like being questioned and judged.

When my mom called me, I was in the mall shopping with my friend. I remember excerpts from it as what she told me is rather 'soul-shocking'. She called to check out what I was doing, so I thought of telling her about my plan of traveling to Bangkok during my birthday this year. It is what I really wanted to do for a very long time. She started talking high-pitched, on how I should not waste my money on any traveling anymore. Then I assured her that I will work and earn funds for it. She told me that I am only 20 years old and there will be loads of chances for me to travel in the future. I should be getting some part time job and earn some money.

I told her not to worry as I will look out for myself that she said, "What big things can you achieve now? I'd been through your stage and know your feelings." I bet she wasn't really listening and understand what I am talking about. What disturbed me is denying what I am capable of. I know what parents want for us is to lead a happy normal life without taking risks. But I'm not a normal person, I think very differently and I am growing more and more restless as day crawls by. I am not content with the present and will never settle for it. Support and encouragement is all I need.

I need inspiration. I need to go somewhere new and meet new people. I need my juices back flowing throughout my body. I want to get passionate again.

If I wanna get a tattoo, I will get "No Limitations" on my body. Don't stop me from doing things just because you can't do so. Don't stop me from dreaming big because everyone told you I should be walking the same path that everyone else did.

Limitations

2011-07-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

When your parents are putting a limit on how far you should go, think. After that, just do it. Don't walk the same path they'd been through, because you have no idea how far you can go.

Advice are meant to be listen to, but not all of them are meant to be followed. Choose them wisely.

2011-06-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Thanks to stumble that shows everything random, I was given the opportunity to stumble upon my interests and inspire me to try out new things. It is through searching and trying do I have a clearer picture on what I like to do most.

Again thanks to stumble I read upon an article that asks, if you want to know what you do best in, just think about the things that you enjoyed doing the most. Stuff that made you happy.

Well, it is very clear in my mind that I love architecture, investment and dealing with people the most. Next it will be photo shooting, and art. For now. :)

Although I'm not that gifted in creating art, I know I have a profound interest in expressing myself through it. If I do have more chance to practice and nurture, who knows it might turn out to be?
I am particular about my stuff, they must be artsy enough to represent me. I can imagine myself having the freedom to spend. I will surely be like a tigress unleashed, a deadly shopping havoc.

Well for investment, it is a long way to go. Something that could not wait any longer, with what I want to achieve. I lost my goal for some time. Now, it's time to get back in action. Seriously.

"Obstacles are those frightful things that you see when you take your eyes off your goal."
Henry Ford

Questions That Will Free My Mind???

2011-06-03T16:21:00.000+08:00

So, I stumbled upon an article titled "50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind". Curious and in hopes of how it will help free my mind, I posted some here.

1. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
I don't like failing. It just made me feel that I'd done not enough to succeed. But, never trying doesn't even give me a chance to know whether I will excel at something. I guess never trying is worse? Cause I get to learn through failing, and failing lets me know what I am capable of.

2. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
After going through the sentence for more than 5 times, I get it. If you could do anything that can gives you happiness(which means rich in this context), what would I stick for?
I would stick for art. Creating art. Be it music, dance, architecture, photography, books, or paints, art is the only thing that can fuel me to happiness.

3. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
Urgh NO I don't!

4. Why are you, you?
Cause I'm made of sugar, spice, and everything nice? Nahh haha....
I guess it is for all the experience, memories and past that made me, me. :)

5. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
Losing touch with a good friend who lives right near me.
A good friend or companion is hard to come by. It is nice to spend the rest of my life with that person as a friend, and losing touch can be heart breaking. When you reach out far to touch, just to realize that there's no one there on the other side. A friend can be miles away but still be a good friend.

6. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
No, you never know the truth before having all you'd rooted for being challenged.

7. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
Don't we all agree, that fear is of the unknown.

8. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
I don't even remember what happened 5 years ago. Guess it doesn't really matter now.

9. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
When I'm working really hard for my business and going all out for it. It is something I believe in and makes me feel alive than never before.

10. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
Yes, sadly. Till the day I get my answer.

11. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Good phrase. I should be reminding myself that time after time.

12. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
I listen to my breathing every night to go to sleep. :)

Just in case. If you're curious too :)

2011-05-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

I get more and more irritated when I have no idea what the grown-ups are crapping about. Probably it doesn't make sense, to me.

I am expanding my context. Things that seemed indifferent to the norm might turn very weird in my eyes.

Let it be.

Relationships need effort. It stops working when someone stop trying. :/

Potter Fever

2011-05-11T00:20:00.000+08:00

I love Harry Potter!
I love J.K.Rowling!

Nothing in this world can replace the magical world she created and had successfully captivated millions of people into it. I bet every little kid who read Harry Potter wished that they are in Hogwarts, fighting alongside Harry, Ron, and Hermione. But I was way past 11 years-old then to realize that it is indeed impossible.

Back to my home, I always get the books off my shelves and start reading them up. Over and over again. Especially the last installment, there are too many details and descriptions that I can not fully retain in my memory. It doesn't fail to left me in awe no matter how many times I read it. And truthfully, Harry Potter is the only book which I can keep on read for a very long time. Hours, indeed. Or a day. Until I reach the end of the story.

Dumbledore's Army. Until the very end.

Erm. WHY NOT?

2011-05-09T12:41:00.000+08:00

"Some men see things as they are and say, 'Why?'
I dream things that never were and say, 'Why not?'"

Quoted from Robert F. Kennedy- younger brother of John F. Kennedy and had served as one of the advisors during JFK's presidency. Following JFK's assassination, Robert began campaign for the presidency. In the California presidential primary, Robert defeated a U.S. senator from Minnesota and after delivering his victory speech, was assassinated.

2011-04-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

I'm that greedy when it comes to book.

Intolerable, even.

It's something I would keep on owning as long as there's money left in my pocket. :/

That's something I will have in my future house.

A large library. Wooden bookcase to the ceiling.

With much sunlight showering the room, and some coffee tables with big comfy chairs.

2011-04-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

Leaving me alone by myself can be a killing suicide.
I need someone to tell me what I'd did right or wrong.

Reading, shall be the best cure.

Seaside

2011-04-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

Now do I fully realize what a 'getaway' really means. Especially when you are having one of those bad times in your life, it lets you sit back from the buzz and hustle.

Seasides doesn't really appeal to me because I grew up beside one. But this time when I return with a burdened heart, I simply enjoyed it like I never did.

Walking along the seashore, feeling the breeze, and listening to the waves.
Bliss.
You hear no honks, no typings, no machines.
Just people having fun by the sea and sea waves touching the shore.

I shall visit more often. :)

You can't stop a true survivor

2011-04-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

I believe in horoscopes and astrology. I believe it more than anything.

It says that I'm a fighter and survivor.
It says that I have real grit and remain true to my ideals no matter what.
It says that I wear a serious face because I shouldered great responsibilities in youth, leading me to an unrealistic sense of responsibility and feeling deprived.
It says that I have remarkable resilience in the face of disappointment.
It says that I am very concentrated on security and have a talent for making smart investments, and that I have a good chance of achieving financial success early.

And so, I tell myself that it is true. Among the doubts and challenges, this is something about myself that I can hold on to, and believe.

Yes. I am a fighter and survivor, and will achieve my financial success early.
(whether you like it or not.)

2011-04-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

Everything is just so messed up in me.
I want to cry and cry to make myself feel better, but my tears just won't come out. pfft.
I walk around like a zombie, literally.
I want someone to talk to. If I can't pour my tears out I might as well pour some of my problems out. But I just can't think of anything to tell.

This have been a really long depression. So long that made me unsure of what I'm capable of anymore.
So messed up that I dislike myself. When you got people disliking you and you try your best to shrug them off, they just come back stronger and bigger. Maybe that's how it's gonna works for me. Go on haters, thanks much for the attention.

It hurts but I guess it's time to let go.

That night I slept well, cause I cried, finally, after a very long time.

2011-03-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

Oh somehow, I feel like being neglected. Oh somehow, I feel like I'd abandoned myself.
This is tragic.
It's 3 in the morning and I tried.
I tried with no effort, booster drinks with no effect on me.
Because I don't know how.
Don't ask me, cause I just need to feel that tad of better.

I'm a fool, in this place.
No more ifs, it gave me too much hope.
Oh, so that's what you can do.

Can't move.
Let me sleep.

Let me sleep.
Oh, so that's all you can do.

Not Alone

2011-03-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

After this, what am I gonna do is to put on my armor and march into the battle. My swords and blades are honed and ready.

It had been a really long battle, and my energy drained. Took some time resting and recharged, it is time to go all out.

I'm not alone in the battle. I have heroes and heroines running ahead proving to me that they can make it and so do I, because I know what I am made of and what am I capable of.

I'm not alone and they'd been through rougher routes. It is time, to seriously go all out!!!!!

Not Easy. Just worth it.

2011-02-23T01:42:00.000+08:00

At some point of my life, I gotta accept the fact that what I think is best would not be the same to other people out there. That what I think is a new revolution seemed to be a hypothesis yet to be proven.

Do it or leave it. I would appreciate people who continues to work under other people to make my life easier.

If everyone had followed my way, there would not be people serving me tables and filling my car up with gas.

As I walk down this amazing pathway which I had it so clear in my mind, I am sure what I am going to do about it and how I am going to live in it.

A rotten apple is a rotten apple, no matter how hard I try to save it.

I should've been that man

2011-02-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

So I say, to spend all I want and eat all I need, but when reality hits, she says,
"Oops, that's not what you can do all the time, bay be!"

(Baby was reserved for my baby cause it feels so weird to use it on stuffs other than him. Yeah I got myself a baby it was a story too long and I don't fancy publicizing my relationships here. Pfft. Lols. Well I guess I'm used to write philosophical-sophisticated-wadahell rantings here.)

Back to the story, I felt utterly uncomfortable under my skin now. It's like something is creeping all over and giving me chills. No, my clothes are perfectly clean, it's just this mental stuff going on inside me now. Believe me when I say I'm seriously a big laze pig. I have like a gazillion things going on, but I looked so calm and relaxed that you feel that there's a deep blue ocean sleeping inside me. You get what I mean? I just sort of auto filter stuffs that I categorize as hassle and move on. Holy shit.

To get myself motivated, I think imma gonna do loads of window shopping, brainstorm, plan things ahead of time, get way excited and start being a busy bitch.

Wadafak am I doing in my life now???????????????

Life tend to kick us around,
and reality blinded us all.
So we stop and doubt,
when people say it's beyond possibility.
Until someone stand up tall,
do you say I would have been that man.

WAR

2011-01-23T01:16:00.000+08:00

It's this battle that goes on inside you that makes it so hard.
It's the battle between who you no longer are and who you want to become that is the problem.
The part of you that still seeks security is in a war with that part of you that wants freedom.
Only you can decide which one will win.

Wandering.

2011-01-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

Was wandering around aimlessly.
My mind was blank, and I am unproductive physically.
What a waste of time.

For once, I have no idea what to do.
I don't know where should I go to, what should be my lead, and how can I get out of here.
It's like I'm in a black hole. A vacuum.

Where was my passion of which I am so proud of, and so sure of?
I know I will make it, but this had been a long journey.
Maybe vacuum is just a way of me de-tiring & de-stressing.

Wabble-wabble. Double-double.
Listening to one of GD & TOP's new song.
Catchy tune.

I hope this Saturday will give me a reason to step on.

Destination

2011-01-10T00:13:00.000+08:00

You know when you are in the car going on a long journey to somewhere you'd never been,

if you keep your eyes on the road,

you can have clear directions in your head.

But if you wake up in the middle of the journey,

you lost yourself travelling on an unknown route.

Panic, and have no choice but let it bring you to wherever it is.

Merry Go Round.

2011

2011-01-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

How can I miss blogging an entry on the 1st day of 2011?

So below lays my long list of things that I hope to happen in 2011.

I might be greedy but I get to dream big kan?

Travel. My passion!!!

Dive under crystal blue water at a perfect getaway.

Let me pamper myself in another country and be materialistic for once.

Strolling down the streets of Spain.

Imma get myself a camera.

I want to take loads of beautiful pics.

2010 is not fun at all without them.

Enjoy all the fun that I can have!!!

Buy whatever makeup that I want!

Buy whatever clothes I need! XD

Have more sushis.....

Have more pastasss...

To be with someone whom I love and treasure and feel the same way to me too. ^^

Duh. I know.

So that's why you'd been seeing me working my ass off.

You better make all of my dreams come true.

If not, I'll still make sure you do.

Don't worry.

I'll ~

CHEERIO. peeps

STRESSED=DESSERTS

2010-12-25T22:53:00.000+08:00

I always thought something was missing.

Something gluttonous, pricey, and guilty.

I want to nom all day, lie on my bed, and stare at the cobwebs on the ceiling. I fell asleep in between, and continue nom-ing after I woke up.

If there is a perfect solution for everything in this world. It will be SO not fun.

Our life should have something challenging once in a while to keep the spices in.

How about,

constantly challenging?

I forget about stuffs, and

slowly evolve to get used to that.

Oh, and yeah.

There are only 6 freaking days left!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

SIXXXX freaking DAYS!!!!

Let me think what I should do on my last week for 2010.

Hmmmmmmm.

The 9 Last Days

2010-12-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

It's the 22nd of December, man. ZOMG. Freaking out, yo. I can't believe this.

It's not that I missed a really important anniversary. No anniversary to remember too, either. It's just that there are only 9 days left to 2011. NINE DAYS. NINEEEE FREAKING DAYSSSSSS!!!

2010 is coming to an enddddddddddd!!! This year is fast!!!

I wonder what I will be doing on the last 9 days of this 2010. Bet I'll be working my ass off as usual. Stay young, and have fun. XD

Can I refuse to welcome 2011???

Fakers.

2010-12-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

Distance is always a good thing in a good way. Everyone needs it. We have more oxygen to breath, and I don't turn berserk all the time.

Everyone will eventually reach a stage where they can identify who are worth expressing deep-down feelings to, and who are better off saying 'hello' only, or maybe discuss about trivial matters like how the lecturer sucks. This way, you are well off being annoyed by petty people, and the world will be a better place. : )

Yet, the world just keep on spinning with loads of fakers, fakers who can't be more faker than plastics or styrofoams. I want to roll my eyes/express my agony/break their necks/spit on them/make any insensible move whenever they turn up, but I failed and stoned and get dumb cause I just can't believe it is happening in front of my eyes. Making me dismay for humiliating my IQ with their faker than styrofoam lies, just made me realize that, it is just one of their many old tricks. @.@

Maybe being too brilliant is not something wise other than getting you good grades, because it is too easy to know that you're talking shits and elephants the moment you speak. URGH.

Unproductive=Food

2010-11-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

I sat there and rot, eyeballs glued to the screen. It had been some time since I last wasted time like that.

GOSH.

All I did was watch, eat, and sleep. Eat, watch, sleep. Sleep, eat, watch. The cycle keeps on repeating that it kinda freaks me out. O.o I was so unproductive for one whole day. Can't believe that I can live this kind of life for my past whole life. =.=

When I'm unproductive, all that I can crave for is FOOD. My senses are heightened to any food around me. I start to have hallucinations of different kinds of food, and even planned what to eat for the following days.

Am I losing my mind? Hmmm...

I want cupcakes too.

T.T

My KINDER BUENOOOOO

Mine was finished, I want more!!!

I can still feel its texture in my mouth, mmmph!!!

MACARONES!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!

O.O!!!

Walau SUSHIIIIII

AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE

nom nom nom!!!

This is sooo torturing mannn!!!

Just shoot me.

Q.Q

YES!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I made myself salivating in the middle of the night. Good way to talk myself to sleep. *sigh*

P.S: Stop stalking people, Eddie =.=

Sleepy Afternoon

2010-11-18T14:42:00.000+08:00

I know I had not been updating lately. Life is a buzz and I kinda get used of me losing count on what to do next. I have 3 major assignments due next week, and I'm still facebooking, sleeping, staring at the screen, bla whatever~ It's like when I'm young and my mom was getting the cane, I just root to the ground and refuse to run for my life. Stubborn me.

So, Mr. or Ms. Anonymous beside there was reminding me to update. Who still greet others as pals nowadays anyway? Is he/she really english-ish or it's just a cover up to not let me know who he/she is. Hmmmmm...

I am halfway through my marketing assignment comparing India and China. (Geographically, ecomomically, &^%$#@) =.=
Maybe a nap now is all what I need to differentiate them better. Heee....

Paint Roses Red

2010-10-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

Like Alice in Wonderland, I paint roses red.
Like her, I fell into a deep hole.
But in my own version, I do not land on any ground.
I just keep on falling.

Don't you feel that sometimes, you can't help but keep on falling.
So sick that you would want to have your butt landing on any ground, as long as it stops.

自己做的决定

2010-10-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

只要是自己做了的决定，是好是坏，跪着都要走完它。有点hardcore，但是讲难听点就是这样。虽然有时像无头苍蝇那样，到处撞，看到有微光时就朝那里直冲。

昨天和素未见面的朋友聊起，他说要在21岁之前变富翁。接着他说，其实双亲早已去世了，都是在靠自己。我问他那要怎样赚到那笔钱，他说靠多层次传销。果然，我也大概猜到啦。21岁前要赚一亿，打工是永远不能实现的。能够只要付出努力就能有成果的就只有靠多层次传销。

他让我很敬佩。当身边的朋友都只是吃喝玩乐，逍遥过日子时，他却很努力地赚钱养活自己，很认真地过生活。

现在时代改变了，如果大家还凭着以前那脚踏实地，以后毕业出来才打工的思想，你太慢了。脚步太慢了。现在就要为未来打算。我宁愿现在开始努力，利用现有的时间，慢慢开始对自己的生活负责任。

独立。不只是思想上的独立，也是金钱上的独立。

你做到吗？

没有心理准备的人别进来玩。

Step One

2010-10-09T12:29:00.000+08:00

Step one you say we need to talk
He smiles politely while you get things on
Trying to slip through his defense but he just stare through
You grant him one last chance
To make things right

He might say that's just him
Or he'll pretend nothing happened
And you began to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along the bitterness

Bulletproof

2010-10-01T20:09:00.000+08:00

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when its dead
Do do do your dirty words
Come out to play
When you are hurt?
There's certain things
That should be left unsaid

Tick tick tick tick
On the watch
And life's too short
For me to stop
Oh baby
Your time is running out

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt

This time baby
I'll be bulletproof

Next. Move On.

2010-10-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

When things don't turn out, say NEXT

When words don't come true, say NEXT

When people don't play nice, say NEXT

When every tut-ting thing in your life is like goddamn oh so shit-like, we can't help but MOVE ON.

From Friends and Family

2010-09-29T22:23:00.000+08:00

I remembered me dedicating an entry to my best friend Jie Ying on her birthday March earlier this year. In return, I saw her posting one up specially for me too on my birthday.

Fiona昀靖，很幸运一路来有你陪着。

谢谢你不顾形象陪着我一起疯狂做丢脸的事（反正你也没有形象啦~）

人生再多的低潮和高潮，我们也一起度过。我永远都不会忘记我们一起经历过的事情。

我坚信，再远再久，我们的友谊，我们的默契，都不会变质。

给我的密友，一个独立的女生，

昀靖，

送上最真诚的祝福，

生日快乐。

Thanks Jie Ying- someone who reminds me for who I was. Amid all the buzz, a real tiny gesture is what it takes to let me know how I am loved and cherished.

A little update on my family and friends:

Mummy told me that my birthday this year was a special one. Why so?

Because my lunar birth date actually fell on the same day as my western birth date, which is of a rare coincidence.

I am truly touched by my mother. Yeah, I have my birthday every year, but she remembered it when I was so busy and not expecting anyone to brought it up.

As I doubted myself for what I am doing, she gave me the exact courage that I needed.

That is all that I need to assure me to go on.

Mum, thanks for your love and shelter.

She never forgets my favorite flavor.

From my high school friends, at my first ever reunion with them after graduation.

I was looking around for a clue when they started singing the Birthday song.

Oh. Wow.

It was me.

Surprised and unexpected.

Well, it kinda balanced up right?

I got the best before I got the worst.

Let me tell you, it was a blast this year.

Like WOW.

Giving Up. Finally.

2010-09-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

Even though many told me to give up, I just want to believe in the little chance that I still have in you.
"I'd never gave up on you, it is you who gave up on yourself." I would say.

So when words speak louder than thoughts, I looked through you with contempt. How foolish am I to actually have faith in bullshits people like you? It had been some time I'd wasted stopping by, and I should just move on.

Girls are always soft-hearted.
And that is why I keep on giving people chances, wasting my own time, and in the end ended up in disappointment.

Unless you hit me real hard in the core do I really give up. Nontheless, I'm glad I heard your words.

Just when you are giving yourself hopes, people just can't stop letting you down.

I'd made my choice. Don't let me see you regretting when you were left behind.

Impossible. Not.

2010-09-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

No.

Can't.

I Don"t know.

That's why things are impossible la~

Stop giving up on yourself.

Tsk tsk.

Time to Grow Up

2010-09-18T02:47:00.000+08:00

It was a cold hard slap on my face, teaching me to learn that it's time to grow up. 19th will be the last year of my hopes, dreams and ambitions. Those are for kids. Because after my birthday, I will make sure all of them come true.

Every time I fell down and get hurt, I learnt, to stand back up and be stronger. I will mend my own bruises, and remember how hurt I was.

I have amazing friends who are with me whenever I need them.
I have friends too, that taught me how fragile and breakable friendships can be.
They left me awed, and disappointed.

How I hope I can turn and run. Run and not look back. Run and no one will come after me.
I wanted to run away in the middle of my own birthday party.
How pathetic can that be?

Maybe I will never want to have birthday parties. I'll just be away on that particular day, so even though everyone was busy they do not need to feel obliged to do so.

For that one instance I felt that getting drunk was a good way to make me forget unhappy things and only remember those that I want to. No worries. It's just a thought. I know that boozes are not meant for that. >.<

More to come, I should start getting used with it.

HAHA 19th

2010-09-17T15:47:00.000+08:00

What should I do? Well, I log in to Facebook and wishes over flood my page. Everyone's telling me that it's my big day and I should make it a blast.

How blast can it be?

I'm going crazy any moment and what I need is someone for me to pour everything out. I don't wanna sound desperate and sad in my own blog on 'tis big day of which everyone is telling me abt' but wtf my blog is a place for me to write whatever I like.

It all started from 0:00. Calls coming in and out. But not wishing calls but business calls. I'd worked my big ass off for the pass few months, and finally it paid off right on this day. This is the less taken path that I'd chosen and I will make sure I walked bright and proud down there. I'd lost counts of falls and bruises that I'd have but I bet no one knows. I have pressure. Pressure from myself, my peers, and those god damn shit things that happened. But this is what we called life.

I would like to give a big hug to my dear Pearle who'd been through shits with me. She is the best business partner that I can have. Wtf my other business partners that I'd been working with for this whole day don't even know that it's my birthday. T.T

Well, who cares it's my birthday when everyone is earning gold. My mum knows me so well. She knew what I'm wishing for when I blow off my candles back at home. She even said it out loud right.

"Imma earn my first gold by next year."

Yes you heard me and I heard myself. Everyone heard me.

KANASAI la if I doesn't make it.

Claps

2010-09-06T19:00:00.000+08:00

Clap your hands when you're working too hard

So clap your hands when you're working too hard

I heard this song, "Hands" by The Ting Tings when I wrote this blog entry. I was trying to start crapping on how exhausted I am these days and this line came in:

Clap your hands when you're working too hard

It keeps on repeating with heavy retro beats throughout the song, and I think I kinda clap along it too. >.<

Remember me saying that I fell asleep almost everywhere? I think it came back to me again... I fell asleep between conversations (which is awesomely embarrassing), during lectures, !@#$%^& urghhh it can be VERY irritating.

I should start clapping to myself whenever I feel demotivated, tired, or sad.

HAHA what a weird scene it would be!!!

Anything amazing does not take one only, it takes TWO to make it work, like a clap.

Just like team work, relationships, and conversations.

The more it is, the louder the claps sound.

The Face of Pure Accomplishment

2010-08-26T17:09:00.000+08:00

This is just oh-so-cute!!!!!

Imma have that face of accomplishment one day.

Stop asking me, "When is the one day?"

It's just NOT NOW.

Cause now I'm still working hard.

I understand that it is of absolute necessary to go through a grueling process to reach the unreachable.

WHY SO SERIOUS?

I make sure I have ALL the fun.

So I can get all the hard work done.

Wait for me.

^^v

Lift Issues

2010-08-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

Some people just NEVER learn.

You see there are 2 buttons at the lift. One showing UP, another DOWN. I never understand why people need to press both buttons at once, because it is bloody impossible for the same person to go both ways at once.

Let's say this person wanted to go down but hand 'gatal' pressed both buttons. So a faster lift came but it is going up and the person go in nonetheless, ignoring the arrow pointing upwards. They ended up going up with the people in the lift, then only go down.

You get what I mean?

I had witnessed countless and countless foolish attempts like above in my hostel, and it never stopped reminding me how stupid they can be.

Do they have this mindset that pressing both buttons will speed up the lift? Because whenever I see these kind of people going into my lift, I can't stop going =.=.

Singapore Trip Part 4: Out and Around

2010-08-21T15:37:00.000+08:00

Went to a lot of places actually. Some on my own, while some with my relatives.

What I remembered is just me keep on walking and walking.

Endless walking.

What amazes me the most is my pair of RM19.90 black flip-flops. I go everywhere with them, and my feet were protected and comfortable. Ha!

My transportation fee went up for like S$15, which is around RM33++ here. Shocking-nya. But yeah, I went around changing from line to line. Hop here hop there. ^.^

This is the famous Bugis Street. It's like a street market la.

Inside, is packed of people. Super packed, and I went on weekdays wei.

Not much for me to see, as it's kinda similar to our Sg. Wang here at KL.

Selling all sorts of clothes and accessories.

Opposite Bugis Street is the Bugis Junction.

The interior is really nice!!!

Like a remake of historical streets with shops all around.

Muachi with red bean paste on it!!!

Like like like like!!!

Day before the b'day party, Biao Di came so I went lepak with him.

So cool!!!

When I point my lenses at that Biao Di =.= to me, saying: 1U also got la. =.=

But I say: Different la, this outdoor so cool!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA

This is us walking along Orchard.

We are like lepak-ing at one end, and our relatives were like at another end.

Biao Di insisted to walk instead of taking MRT, and we ended up walking for like freaking half an hour to reach the other end. =.=

Anyway Orchard is very happening in the weekends, with live performances around, people all over, and free coke to give away. ^.^

It's freaking steamingly hot under the sun, but it's worth to get to have a look at the bustle along the road.

This is an amazing experience.

TWG Tea Boutique.

You see, the adults have this idea of having tea at this so-called super super fine place.

Famous of their scones and macarons.

So we(me, biao di & sue en) the young ones were being 'ordered' to line in the queue before everyone came.

N it goes on with us obediently waiting.

Looking curiously at the oh-so-charming Caucasians working there.

Us awed by the rich list of tea available on the menus.

Out of boredom I took a count, and there are like 600++ type of teas available.

OMG.

Ranging from japanese tea, chinese tea, english tea etc etc.

Each of them pricing between S$10-30

The interior is really amazing la!!!

Right when my lenses came out to snap snap snap, I was being told not to do so. T.T

After for like 45 min our patience were worn.

Oh, and we were told to give up right when it was our turn.

Sien....

But in the end I get to taste the macarons la, which is really tasty!!!

Okay la, balanced back.

^.^

Singapore Trip Part 3: Discovery Center

2010-08-21T14:49:00.000+08:00

Me on the bus to find my cousin sis Sue En.

She's studying under the ASEAN scholarship, and is now at Hwa Chong Institution.

N she showed me her instax mini!!!

A birthday presents from her friends, jealousnya!!! >.<

Fujifilm Instax Mini

fuah!!!

Discovery Centre aka science centre

HAHA!!!

Got so many fun things like this!!!

I can lift a 200kg thing oh~

What's the theory?

The pulley theory lo~

She can jump so high on the springs, whereas I....

Jump till very funny =.=

Peep hole...

You can see a chair there from that angle...

I liked the echo tube a lot.

I just stood there and made all kind of voices and listen them echoed through the whole tube.

Hehe...

It's really fun there because it's like me n Sue En were still in high school.

Trying out every single fun thing available there.

You see there's a jackpot machine.

N it calculates the percentage of you winning. =.=

Sue En is so nice!

We took a photo together with her instax mini and she gave me as a 'cenderahati' la~

Visited Mcd too!!! >.<

Well I was hungry la then and there's one just right in front of the Discovery Center.

Believe me, McD there is way more expensive then ours.

But their McD is so cool with all kinds of different creative layouts.

You see there's a full display of their toy collection.

My fav Snoopy!!!

So Not Me

2010-08-21T03:29:00.000+08:00

There goes a saying:
If you're not happy with the way things are, change it.
And well(sigh), I'm disappointed there's so little that I can do out of it now.

I remembered that once someone told me that I can achieve great things.
I remembered too that once someone told me that I'm the best inspiration to them.
If you gave me a chance, I would go way back and ask them to reconsider.

I'm disappointed.
How I hope that I can just bang my head to the nearest wall and I will be knocked out of it.
Simple at it is. It just might be a little pain. Maybe not a little, but my sufferings will get to an end.

Where was the 'me', of which I go to my limits and was never afraid to dream big?
I used to proclaim every single bizarre thing I wanted to do, and as I told my best friends we laugh off together. We both knew that I'm gonna do it sooner or later. The end might not be what I'd wanted, but what matters most is the process. It would be a fearless funfair filled with imagination, and craziness.

I stayed up late at night.
I'd been wondering why, but now I know it's me seeking a little passion for my life.
An opening. A new excitement. Anything.
But I failed everyday, and was left on my bed with my eyes wide open.

Now it seems that my passion is gone, craziness gone, fiona gone, everything gone.
What's left in me, I guess, is some kind of pure dried up stuff left behind.

So not me.

Singapore Trip Part 2: Jada and Kayla

2010-08-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

Meet the ultimate twins Jada (pronounce jay-da), and Kayla.

The main purpose of me visiting Spore is to attend their 1st birthday party. ^.^

Out buying birthday clothes for them.

So cute nia them.

Kawaiiiii

N this was chosen!!!

Looked like boy boy rite?

But they are girls actually ^.^

Like mother, like daughter.

She's my cousin sister whom I'm really fond of since young.

Shot this when they just woke up next room and crawled to my room.

I like this one the most!!!

With Kayla's big smile and her new grown teeth.

Singapore Trip Part 1: MRT

2010-08-17T22:52:00.000+08:00

Before you go on I need to warn you that there are going to be endless photos down there.

Many of which contains high dosage of vain-ness in it,

of which I'm going to break down to several posts.

First day in Spore ready n set to go!!!

Walking along the pedestrian walk-way outside my cousin's apartment.

So serene and spacious...

You see their walk-way still build so big even though their land is limited!!!

Gives everyone space!!!

In front is the MRT station, there is ALWAYS one in every neighbourhood.

Found this on the MRT tracks.

WALAU

even got sign there to warn you from suiciding.

That's the MRT line of one of the 5 or 6 lines they have.

YI???

What's that blinking thing???

Ooooh.

The red light is the station that you just left.

While the green lights are the station that you're heading too.

So convenient nya~

(Sometimes our public transport din even announce what the next station is.)

Guess what?

I'm not at airport oh!!!

MRT station need walk very far, so got this oh!!!

Banyak orang ga their MRT station...

Before going to Spore

2010-07-25T02:21:00.000+08:00

If I don't write this now, I don't know when will I write. Or I think I'll just forget about this post and move on. So here I am, late night, and having this entry.

Anyway, I'm off to Spore tomorrow. Can't wait. FIRST TIME. Shit, am I seriously going pass the custom, alone, at the first time in my life? I hope I do not got lost, and my bus do wait for me... T.T
A week in Spore with no friends with me? Don't worry, I have my cammie with me, and with my backpack, I believe I will leave Spore satisfied. "Tee-Hee." Oops, bei chuan ran liao.
My aim? Take loads of photos, loads of ME time, and of course loads of adventure.

I MMG BERANI de lo!!! My mum till now also say me GENG!!! pei fu wo le...

Just came back form Vince's 21st bday party. He's actually 20, but according to the Chinese calendar, we're always a year older. So, he's celebrating his 21st bday on his 20th. WEIRD kan???

So Vince's like the major celebrity that night. He just stand there, and there'll be like 4-6 cameras snapping at him non-stop. With all the flashs, I could just say it looked oh-so-like PAPARAZII!!!! Good poser la him, not shy at all in front so many cameras, GENG!!!

Anyway, it's like everyone showed up. He have super many frens lo. Other than us college mates, his high school frens mmg alot. Loads of lengzai tim... HEHE...

OH. So it reminds me that I have another very important mission at Spore. GAP ZAI!!!
Let me see see how Spore guys are lik, whether they suit my taste. Hmmmm......

Random pics below. BEWARE!!!

FullHouse

2010-07-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

EXAMS are finally over!!!!!!

YAY!!!

Above is the cupcake Ms. Dilla gave us upon the completion of her Graphic Design course.

^.^

It is so sweet of her!!!

Went to Full House newly opened at Sunway Giza.

It is really nice.

When you go inside you feel like being in a mansion.

You know, I don't really get to go into mansion and eat all the time.

*sigh*

With Jem n Eve.

Forest Mushroom Soup

Really got the musky taste of it loh!!!

Tiffany's favourite:

Smoked Salmon Caesar Salad.

OISHII neh!!!!

<3 the smoked salmon,

cuz I usually ate raw salmon only...

Deserts served with the set.

YUMMY!!!

Actually had lunch with Rex and Pearle, but don't really dare to take ppl punya pic la.

Wan scare ppl with my camera meh?

Even my guy frens see my camera lens pointing towards them,

AUTOMATICALLY

"san ren"

Neh like this pic lo.

Actually this is the 2nd time I went again, within the same week.

T.T

But is to ganti for Winnie's bday earlier this month.

Had a really nice time bullshitting with everyone for 3 whole hours there.

From super lame jokes to freaky ghost stories,

to crushes and to waving at a random hot guy that walked by.

=.=

A recent pic of mine.

Taken in the early morning, & I mean really morning.

HAHA.

Went to Neway with Eve, Sue and her two friends,

who are really nice ppl to meet.

^.^

Your Own Fault

2010-07-22T11:31:00.000+08:00

1, 2, 3, 4, 5,

6, 7, 8, 9, 10,

11, 12, 13...

I laid their corpse on my jug.

Snickering to them, "You jumped into HELL!!!"

Lan Sok Ppl

2010-07-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

What irritated me the most, is those people are underage and want to lan sok.

Duh.

Please don't come stick so near to me, ok? You're not my bff, so don't get too physical with me. Wtf is it with you sticking at me!? Wtf is it with standing sooooo close with me?! I'm not being sensitive, it's obvious when you keep a 5cm distance with me wherever I move. =.=

Please do not check out what my monitor is displaying every few seconds, it ticks me off. I'm sensitive with my surroundings so I know you're peeking, frequently, so urgh! fak off!!!

Please don't copy my BLEACH!!!!! It's freaking creepy when you even changed your wallpaper similar to mine after I saw you starring at it. T.T

N please don't do sneaky things in front of me!!! For example, taking your phone up high to the level of ma face(obviously aiming at me =.=), but pretend to take a shot of the food in front of me.
Please do try to adapt to college level and leave those back at high school. Let's maintain our maturity level at uni.

Gosh. Don't try my patience.

Made IT

2010-07-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

After a week of stressing over my jap language exam, it was over.
Well, not really, cause I'm having my finals next week. =.=

Anyway, I was soo

PROUD and HAPPY!!!

Cuz

I PASSED MY JAP ASSESSMENT TEST!!!

WITH 98/100 MARKS OH!!!!!

OF CUZ IM SUPER HAPPY LA!!!!!!!

Stranded. Lost. Korean Food.

2010-07-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

Last week is so eventful I have so many things to blog about!!!

Friday

We went to Tutti Frutti after class. It is a new place at Giza la, where it sells yogurt ice-cream of all sorts of flavor. Below is original flavor and blueberry flavor. My fav is blueberry, well I bet blueberry tastes nice in everything. Too bad pms tat day, cant really eat any of those. T.T

They have machines over there where you sendiri service take as many as you can, any flavor as you like. Then you take it to the counter, weight, yes weight, and pay

RM5.80 = per 100g

Actually quite pricey de lo.

>.<

After that Phui Loo fetch me to Kelana Jaya LRT station, kerana I want to go back to my aunt's place. But hor, when I reached there, the roller shutter was half down, and there was super many people lining up, or perhaps trapped, like me. So I sat on the stairs and wait, only to heard from the announcement that the system is down and trains are moving really slow, like really really slow that type. What's worse, it's gonna take 1 or 2 hrs to revive the line. O.O

Siao ah, want me sit there wait 2 more hours no I'm not gonna stupidly wait time pass and was super stressed up because of my Japanese language exam the next day. They are not letting people in, so everyone has no where to go, HAHAHAHA. In the end, I called up my savior of the day- Sue.

What's more epic? ME sitting on the stairs, people passing by, with my book out and practice writing hiragana. T.T.

So after Sue came pick me up we decided to settle our dinner. As I got on the car, I ma talk talk talk lo, then I think Sue also not really concentrating haha, and ended up at the direction to Sunway Pyramid. It was super jam, and Sue pun x mau u-turn go back dah.

Drive drive drive.

Me : Yi, in front Eddie's house liao wor.

Sue: Yeah ah?

Me : Go find him lor.

Sue: Er. Okay ba. (turning at the junction)

Me : Hah? We really go find him ah?

& we ended up in front of Eddie's house only found out that Eddie's not back yet =.= I don't know is because of his driving or the road he take is really jam, but too "kua zhang" le ba!!! >.< Anyway, we asked for directions to Sunway and off we go!!!

Venture around Pyramid and found this korean restaurant inside Asian Avenue. It's called The Street Cafe, food is surprisingly nice, but it is hidden. ^.^

Ordered this.

Looked real huh?

Is fake de la!!!

HAHAHA

(Refer to photos below)

HAHA these are food displays la...

But it do looked real lo~

The Street Cafe

We sat on the counter right in front the kitchen.

So fun can see how they prepare food!!!

Ordered korean's oh-so-famous rice cake!!!

Oishi ne~

HOHO

or shud I say

a-ju ma-si-sseo-sseo-yo

(yup, it's done after some research)

I ordered this lunchbox with bulgogi (korean bbq beef). It comes with kimchi and miso soup.

See? They even sticked stickers on it to customize the lunch box, kawaii ne!!!!

The beef VERY NICE lo!!!!!!

Sue enjoyed the korean tea(taste malt-y, nontheless delicious!!!) & rice cake.

Ma first time eating korean food leh~

Zhan!!!

Anyway, The Street Cafe have another branch at SS15!!!
Let's go again, it's highly recommended!!!

Time

2010-07-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

I need more time.

Cuz I'm taking granted of it.

PHOTOS!!!!

2010-07-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

Good gracious!!!!!!

I got to upload my photos!!!!!

YEAH!!!!!

Check out my FB!!!!

>.<

Thanks to friends for helped out!!!

Anyway, I have a few favorites.

It's Jem & Phui Loo.

So it's because Jem described PL as having a big ass,

& PL revenged.

OMG

I have such cute friends!!!!

Strawberry Marshmallow Cheesecake niaaaa.

NICE!!!!!

I like this alot.

She's so happy.

Can title this as:

The Girl with Her Chips.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

COOOOOL.

Sue with her new haircut!!!
GLAM
but too bad didn't catch right lightning...

Eve took this.

O.O

Will, I want to be taken too kan?

Happy Post Turned Sad

2010-07-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

I'm so desperate right now lo.

After getting my hands on a SLR that I can take as many pics as I want

(MUAHAHA),

I go here

SNAP SNAP

there

SNAP SNAP

WAAAAA

so happy ah!!!

Went home with my mind made up of what to blog about with all the amazing pics.

Only to found out that the stupid Sony a200 use flash card,

rather than SD or XD card.

ARGHHH.

Verrrrry frustrated.

Desperate.

I even planned to brag to Eddie

about the Strawberry Marshmallow Cheesecake that I'd ate today.

can't wait to post photos

of Jeremy's really funny expressions.

OMG.

T.T

anyone got flash card reader?

Time Waits For No One

2010-07-04T15:56:00.000+08:00

It's a Sunday.

I'd played my part of lazying on my bed till noon.

The Girl Who Leapt Through Time

The movie was breath-taking.

It was a 2006 production that'd won bla-bla-bla awards.

It's about this high-school girl who gain the power to time-travel, and her frivolous ways to use it to solve her problems.

It's kinda funny and touching at the same time.

Q.Q

Because at the climax, it was a REALLY story twister there.

O.O

You can see the male protagonist in the poster up there.

The mysterious Chiaki.

My favourite quote from the movie?

Time waits for no one.

Supercentenarian

2010-06-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

Supercentenarian

Su-per-cen-te-na-rian

I wonder...

Is it a curse or blessing to live 110 years and above?

By that age, I guess you'll be old and fuzzy, mumbling, and with no memories.

Scary

2010-06-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

I get scared sometimes!!!
So scary nye!!!

Then I dunno what to do!!!
What to do what to do?

Then I decided to look some where else and ignore.
Heeeeeee. ^.^

Night and Day

2010-06-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

I so itchy butt hor, late night only go wash my hair.

So here I am again, typing in an entry when I stayed up late.

Somemore hor tml got morning class. =.=

Today's punya Stats Mid-Term was a dish!!!

Lecturer giving obvious hints, and exchanging answers.

(I can't help it >.< Eve wanted to see mine!!!)

Anyway I had my first Subway with Pearle, Eddie & Andre!!!

Finally got to eat it duh... ^.^

It's the Monday deal and I shared it with Pearle~

Went to watch Knight and Day.

Stomach ache.

Back home and slept (for 30min?)

Eve found that her phone was MISSING.

Went back to 1U AGAIN.

Checked with the GSC staff,

NOT FOUND.

Ate my second sandwich of the day: Rotiboy's premium wholemeal. (superb!)

Eve found a perfect excuse for us to spend on eating since her phone was pronounced lost:

Depressed. (RIP Eve's phone. T.T...)

Went Sushi Zanmai to eat SUSHI!!!

OMG.

my hair is still not dryyyyyyy

How am I gonna sleep???

Night and Day

2010-06-29T00:47:00.000+08:00

I so itchy butt hor, late night only go wash my hair.

So here I am again, typing in an entry when I stayed up late.

Somemore hor tml got morning class. =.=

Today's punya Stats Mid-Term was a dish!!!

Lecturer giving obvious hints, and exchanging answers.

(I can't help it >.< Eve wanted to see mine!!!)

Anyway I had my first Subway with Pearle, Eddie & Andre!!!

Finally got to eat it duh... ^.^

It's the Monday deal and I shared it with Pearle~

Went to watch Knight and Day.

Stomach ache.

Back home and slept (for 30min?)

Eve found that her phone was MISSING.

Went back to 1U AGAIN.

Checked with the GSC staff,

NOT FOUND.

Ate my second sandwich of the day: Rotiboy's premium wholemeal. (superb!)

Found an excuse to spend on eating:

Depressed.

Went Sushi Zanmai to eat SUSHI!!!

OMG.

my hair is still not dryyyyyyy

How am I gonna sleep???

Lazy Photo Browsing

2010-06-27T14:18:00.000+08:00

It's the morning after Jeremy's BBQ Party.

Am boring, so I lazily browsed through the photo albums in FB.

Guess what? I found a group photo with everyone in it. 13 of us. No more no less.

I did not miss out anyone right, or do I?

I also found a few photos that I really liked!!!

Wow, with the camera wei~

June & James, this is what you guys were talking about that had made us tipsy.

WINE duh.